After a talk with a teenager today in my office, It actually made me reflect things that have changed since I have been a teenager and the fact that I have been out of high school for almost 10 whole years:
FRIENDS
THEN Friends: Back in high school I had many. Many that I hung out with, Gossiped with at lunch, went to football games, laughed and talked about boys, watched music videos, wrote each other funny notes, got backstabbed, became friends again, made out with boys, cried about boys, talked on the phone for hours, drank our first wine cooler, slumber parties, toilet papering etc.
NOW: I have friends whom I love, who I would do anything for, who text all day long, who we share our love for our kids with, Dinner and Wine, double dates, baby showers ad weddings, divorces and losses. Every single day I know that the friends I have I may be able to count on one and a half hands but they are all my best friends and some I may have not known my whole life only a few years but you just know you will be forever friends. Some I have known since elementary and even though we have been through our rough patches they are family. It’s hard to believe that the amount of friends that I made in high school and the amount of time I had spent with them the friendship isn’t the same as now. When you share your most deepest thoughts concerns, struggles, happiness with a friend it brings you closer together. It seems now that I am less forgiving of people because now that I am older I can CHOOSE who is in my life. I don’t have school to go to where I have to see someone every single day.
FAMILY: Back in high school I thought my parents were annoying, I thought I knew everything, I thought that I could take care of myself. Back in high school I thought my sisters were trying to get on my nerves, I thought my dog was annoying. I didn’t spend enough time with my Grandparents, I thought I was too cool to go on family vacations. All in all I was a rotten teenager. I didn’t care about anything at that point but my boyfriend and my friends. What I wish I could change
FAMILY: Now I see my mom as the hardest working mother around, she cooks dinner, she cleans up, she mows the lawn, cleans the pools, picks up after the dogs, watches my son, takes care of all of us even if two of us don’t live with her anymore. I don’t know what I would do without my mom. She is who has made me responsible with my job, money, and being a good mother to my child. My Dad taught me how to drive (Even though the way I drive he wouldn’t want to admit it) to never give up, to love, to cook an awesome grilled cheese and to work hard for what you want. My sister Katie, I miss her every single day, I wish back in high school I made more time to be her friend, her confidant. She is so independent and deserving of everything she has. She is a great saver, organizer, clean person, I look up to her nutrition and work out plan. I Love her very much. My Sister Melissa and I fought and still fight sometimes now (but what sisters don’t) and I love her. I want to protect her and never let her get hurt. She is very good in school and very close to the lord and she is an awesome person. I feel like also just as Katie we didnt get to spend as much time together when we were little and I wish that I would have been a better role model. The Grandparents I have left (Gramma & Grandma). I speak with Gramma almost every single day and we have become closer in the past several years. My Grandma I have been emailing lately. Neither one of them live far and I should make time for both of them more. The Dog…well now that Im older I see what a perfect companion a dog is and Zoee has shown me that. I love the little piggy zoee dog
Back then I never knew that I would be where I am today. I thought I would be at 27 living in a home that I bought, with my husband and 3 kids. Instead I live in a townhome with my boyfriend (OF 8 YEARS!) and my wonderful amazing, beautiful son, I have a wonderful family, great friends and a good job. With what I have done with my life Im pretty proud to have what I have, and even if I’m not married or own a home or have 3 kids or being rich, I am still completley happy with what I have. I mean really who has a son like me :-)
No comments:
Post a Comment