Circa 1996- The Story of Us

CJ has been my best friend since 9th grade Biology. I knew of him in 8th grade as this girl in my language arts class' boyfriend. But, I actually met him in 9th Grade. I was dating this total loser who was emotionally abusive to me and the first day I ever met CJ he wrote on my hand in big blue letters his name. HUGE I mean it took up my whole hand. A few days later he walked me home. We walked home holding hands. We talked until dark non stop. From that moment forward CJ was my best friend. He has always that person I would go to for everything and I have been to him. I talked to him about boys who broke my heart and he talked to me about skanky girls that broke his. I went to every one of his baseball games at Butterfield (who knew we would have a 5 year old son that would play in the same little league at Butterfield years later) He moved to Riverside. I mailed him letters once a week (like riverside was so far LOL) and he would call me every chance he got from his moms office (they didn’t have a house phone). I always loved him. I never wanted to admit it to myself but I have always loved him. I have loved him since that September day in 1996 when we walked home hand in hand. So when we kissed senior year for the first time to me it was like fireworks (lame I know). That whole week as soon as I was out of school, I drove directly to his house. We went out to dinner, it was awesome but different. He had never showed me so much affection and it was strange. I couldn’t even hold it together. Now mind you I had been best friends with this guy since the day we met and never had a dull moment. But, this was different. I had this weird feeling about all of it. And, that was it for that week of love with CJ and we were back to best friends. I just felt like I wasn’t ready to put my heart totally out there for my best friend in the whole world and lose him. He wasn’t ready for a serious girlfriend either. At that point he was again my best friend. But, that all changed in November of 2001 a year later when he called me and told me that he was dating this girl Molly. I got a little jealous. But, it was a different jealous. He told me that Molly told him she loved him and he told her he loved her back but, he actually wanted me to be the one standing there saying that I loved him. I started crying. I knew at that point I loved him back. But, I didn’t tell him. I just cried. On December 1st 2001 we went and saw Monsters Inc. together. When I went to drop him off at home he told me “now look, I can’t do this anymore unless you are my girlfriend. You either are or aren’t”. (real romantic right lol). But, I was. I was since that first day I met him in Biology we always had that special connection that nobody could break. This was the guy I was going to marry. Life with us hasn’t always been perfect and it won’t always be but I can honestly say that this is the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with. This is the man that I love. This is the man that is a great father to our wonderful son, a hard worker/ business owner, a great friend, my lover, the man I confide in, that I can be myself around, that cooks excellent, that is stylish and sexy, that loves me for who I am. He is a good son to his mother, takes good care of his father, a good brother to his brother and will eventually be my husband. This is the man that I look at every night when I go to sleep and plan on looking at every night when I go to sleep till the day I die.

P.S.  Now if only I could change that fact that he is a Yankee Fan.

Also....Go ANGELS (LIGHT UP THAT HALO TONIGHT PLEASE!)