Band or Artist that have gotten me through

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)-




DISCLAIMER: I’m not going to write a letter about this, however I will write about the CD that got me through some pretty tough times.

There are several CD’s that got me through tough times but 1 really stands out to me:

This is - Kelly Clarkson-Behind those Hazel eyes. CJ & I haven’t always had the perfect relationship I mean who does. But we went through a really rocky time where we were hardly speaking. This was what I have described previously as my dark period. Caden was about 1 when this really started I would say up until he was about 2 ½. But, this one particular time I was really really depressed. If I didn’t have Caden I wanted to sleep. I was bartending at the time and was trying to go to school. I felt empty. To be honest I don’t think I would have made it through if I didn’t have my son and this CD. Now I know it sounds stupid but, this CD helped me a lot. I can remember one particular incident when I was very upset. I had just gotten back from a 4 day trip to Austin. I picked up Caden and Cj wasn’t there. Of course I called him and he probably wished he didn’t pick up the phone. I asked him where he was and he was at dinner. I asked him with who and he told me “someone” I knew it was her. Well meanwhile I drove over there and told him to come outside or I was coming in. He came outside and we got into a huge argument. I was so hurt that he was leaving his son at home with his dad to go out to dinner with this skank? Really? So after that I drove off my heart was pounding. The radio was off and all of a sudden I hear “since you been gone yay a” “since you been gone ya ya” I look in my rear view mirror and Caden was smiling at me singing this song. My son had to have known that this made me calm…this made me feel ok. I never really realized it until that point that Caden was my protector. Caden was 2 years old and knew that this CD was my therapy. How at two years old did he know how to make his mom smile? I look back on this time and picture him singing that day. I don’t know how I could have gotten through without this CD…however I didn’t know that my actual therapy was sitting in the back seat. I get teary eyed just thinking about what an amazing blessing my son is to me.