Im ready to just vent:
In 2009 I battled and continue to battle some health issues…and I then should have known who my friends were but, I didn’t. Then I get engaged..Im happy, im planning a wedding and guess what? I then too should have known who my friends were but, I obviously don’t. I’m not a perfect friend. I too have made my mistakes but, some people continue and continue to be crappy friends…I’m talking about some particular people that have really hurt me in the past couple months and guess what? They probably don’t even know it. But, again…im done trying. Im done answering all their phone calls (they never answer mine)..text messages (again same thing)…or being there to listen to them cry and ask for advice or ask for anything..im done. I have gave them chance after chance…I have tried to be the good friend. I do not get the same thing in return. I don’t expect someone to always be available to talk…I don’t expect that at all. I know for a fact that 99% of my friends do not have the drive time in the car to have the time to talk to me. But, it would be nice if every once in awhile I wasn’t the one making the effort. Just because your life is going well and you don’t need me what If I need you!. But, no that would be too unselfish for you to understand right? Im also done being so forgiving. Why should I have to forgive and forget certain past situations when they continue to do the same all the time. Im at the point In my life where I am almost 28 years old. I know who my friends are…Or at least I should by now. Some people in my life have been in my life since I was 4 years old and they would never turn their back on me…I could not talk to them for 2 years and then turn around and have everything right where we left off. Some people are forgiving and good friends and they feel more like sisters then friends and those people will be in my life forever. But, the people who continue time and time again to hurt me? I don’t need it. I never needed it and Im done. Im sick of being the doormat. I have said it in the past and Im saying it again...The people that I keep dear to me are the people I love and I would do anything for. I think its time to do some housecleaning or reclassing in the "friends" department.
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