Sometimes I feel like I cant talk to anyone about how I feel...Sometimes I feel like I am very alone...very. So maybe my blog will listen to me...even if my own boyfriend doesnt want to
Traffic-Whats new? Every single day its the same ol crap...Whether it is 5 am or 10 pm Im sitting in traffic...Whether its the 10, 210, 15, 91, 71 Its traffic. I get frusterated that people cant understand why I am so exaughsted at the end of the day? Hmmmm maybe because it takes me two hours to drive a 45 minute drive and multiply that by 2
Endometriosis- Why have they not came up with a cure...They have a cure for some cancers a cure for other diseases but not for Endometriosis...It has taken over my life. I have to wear heat patches and take pain pills like they are candy. I cant take more than a 10 minute shower otherwise I feel like im gonna pass out. I have to sleep at least 10 hours to funtion properly and even then Im just looking forward to climbing right back into bed. The symbol for this disease is an octopus and I now know why. It is stretching its 8 legs out and swallowing me as a whole and im tired of it
Diets- Im so sick of worrying about how fat I look in in this or that...Im so sick of not feeling comfortable in wearing shorts...I barley eat a thing..and I cant seem to get back into that pre baby body...Size 3...UGH...Everyone has their own diet tales and do this and do that...I wish I could just have money and get lipo and call it a day...It would make it so much easier...Before I got sick I was going to the gym like 5 days a week...now the one week Imake it twice I end up in the ER...When is this gonna end...Because now this just refers back to the # 2 of things that are bothering me
Marriage- Im sad...I feel like Im the only one I know not getting married. Ive been with CJ for 7 years...8 years in December and he hasnt married me...Why is it his decision that he wants to marry me.. Why have I been waiting around since I was 12 years old to marry this man? I figure if he hasnt married me by now its never gonna happen...I wanted 3 kids a house and a husband by the time I was 25 now Im two years past due expired with one child a boyfriend and a 2 story townhome that I RENT...
Career...Im mad..I was told that I would be driving out to LA temproarily until they figured out the problem in Rancho...Now mind you the problem was this 5'4 215 lb (on her best day) woman who was the rudest most horrible, kniving, manipulating, lazy person you could ever met...She did anything to make a buck seriously...It took them 9 months to fire her 9 FRIGGEN MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and here i am out here in the ghetto LA COUNTY...driving my life away...and they hired someone else out there...Didnt even think to transfer me back right? right!
Big Brother- Now I know this is sooo dumb but hey im sure the only person reading is myself but Big brother is really pissing me off....So I decided to write a little letter to CBS about this ( I really didnt but this is for my own self)
Dear CBS:
You did a great job casting for your 2009 Big Brother Season...Jeff & Jordan were adorable...Jeff & Casey were HILARIOUS Together...Lydia was an extreme train wreck you couldnt peel your eyes away from...Jesse (annoying as all heck) Glad hes gone...(should have never ever cast him ever) it pulled away from your ratings...Russell...A site to be seen that Russell..Watching him blow up on Chima (cha cha cha CHIMA) LOL and Ronnie (ratty ratty tat tat ratty mc ratterson) great! But when he and jeff got into it and he was putting down Jordan and her weight and getting in Jeff's face It was time for him to go...The order of Evictions were fine for me...Mind you I would have rather Jesse to have gone home second week instead of Laura and Ronnie instead of Casey..but It went how it went...I think maybe Braden should have lasted a little longer so they could have got out Natalie and Kevin...But the final four is a real bore to watch...NOw I love Jordan and Michelle...I could listen to Jordan talk about anything but when its not them on the screen im not interested. Your twists this season were lame (besides the Coup De Etat) but, the fact that Jeff got got by stupid Kevin and Jeff had that key to Pandoras box then he should have been able to use it to enter back in the house...(then your ratings would have went WAY UP AGAIN!)...So CBS get it together...You cant let a stupid little girl from Chino (mind you I think i forgot she wasnt 18 cause shes sooooo lame) or Kevin (the backstabbing Jerk off who has no reason to critizie anyone) ***Has he looked in the mirror?**** Anyways thats my two cents about that
My Life right now is not how I want it...Im sick of pain medication...im sick of being so tired and so bitter all the time about being sick and tired...I want to go on Vacation...I want to go away and escape...I dont want to go to Vegas because # 2 & # 4 are the two primary sources of Vegas...I want to go to Palm SPrings or NY or anywhere other than here....Wasnt that a movie Anywhere but here???Thats me...I want to be anywhere but here....I know the problems will be here when i get back but I just want to escape for a little bit
I also Almost forgot...
THE ANGELS....Oh Angels...Please do not dissapoint me anymore...3 errors in one game? You guys are better than that...I have loved you since 1982 can you do me some repeat love of Circa 2002??? Please???I think I deserve it...Also please bring out the brooms when the yanks come to town..There is nothing worse than losing to the yankees...oh wait...Losing to Boston...Oh wait losing to the Yanks when your boyfriend is a yanks fan...But, Angels...There is nothing better than seeing, Weaver/Lackey,Napoli/Mathis, Morales, Kendrick, Aybar, Figgy, Abreau, Matthews, Hunter and Riveria and SCOC. (and all the rest of the guys) win the game...and being there...So give me some wins...wine me and dine me with some play off wins, and give me the ring at the end...Yes the World series ring that is cause god only knows If ill ever see the real diamond...
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